I hate of being 'latest me'

Cepat marah. Cepat berangin. Cepat sedih. Dan segala macam yang negatif. I hate myself. Try to be rationale. Am trying hard to figure out the reason of being negative lately but I just could not. Easily get angry with my girls just because of simple things. I used to be a reasoning mom when something happened between my two girls but lately, I came out with harsh words.... Just dunno why. I hate myself for being me. Worry of something? Afraid of something? I am blank and blur....